I'd forgotten about this little blog.

Don't worry, I'm fine. She can no longer touch me, because Jess is protecting me.

You see, I went back home, and all those little bugs that came crawling out of Jess? I realized that they were Jess. I fed them, and they welcomed me. Jess lives on through them. Don't you see?

She keeps sending people after me, but that just won't do. Whenever I see one of Her dolls, I attack first, and I bring the doll to Jess, and Jess eats it. And Jess protects me from Her when She gets mad.

The other day She sent a little girl after me. I wasn't fooled. I will never be fooled. Do you know how many people She has? How many people are after me?

So many. Too many. Jess will protect me from them. Jess will kill them and eat them all. All the bad people will die. Jess will protect me.

I won't post on this blog anymore. She uses it to know what I'm doing. She has people everywhere. Even the police. All the police are Hers. I know from the way they watch me.

But Jess will protect me. I love you Jess.

On the Run

It's been a week since I ran away. I haven't felt Her strings around me since then. Did I escape?

I stayed at a friend's house the first night, but after that I started going to cheap motels. I'm running out of money for that.

But I can't go back home. Not after what I saw there.

It was a normal day until Jess suddenly clutched her stomach and started gasping for breath. Then she screamed. I tried to talk to her. I wanted to know what was wrong. But all she did was scream.

And then there was blood on her shirt. There was blood oozing down her stomach.

And things were moving there. Beneath her shirt. Beneath her skin.

Last time I mentioned those bugs, I called them the "Intrusion." I think that's what I was seeing now. But these ones were smaller. And more numerous.

They were children.

They'd just hatched.

They were hungry.

They came spewing out of Jess's body, eating their way out of her. She screamed and screamed until finally the screams died and became gurgles and she slumped to the ground and still the Intrusion came forth from her.

I couldn't save her.

I ran.

Good Day

What a lovely day. I have been having so much fun lately.

Over the weekend, Jess and I went to see Captain America. It was swell.

I think I am finally getting over my ex-girlfriend. It's not my fault she dumped me.

They're promoting me at work.

What a great time to be alive!

help me

lies

She lies. I'm free right now. Don't listen to her lies. My hands typed that message. She typed that message.

I am NOT fine. All is NOT good. This is NOT just a story.

I can hear Jess coughing in the next room. It's good that She has not targeted Jess, but I get the feeling that that's because Jess has been taken by something else.

Whenever I have those... "dreams"... the bugs are there. Going into her room. Entering into her while she sleeps.

A group of cockroaches is called an "Intrusion". That sounds about right. Those bugs entering Jess's body-- the Intrusion.

I have to go. My foot just moved a few inches to the left by itself. She is back.

I am fine thank you.

Please do not worry about me.

All is good. All those things I said were lies. I made it all up. It was just a story.

I am fine.

Do not fear.

Nothing is wrong.

Dolls should not feel.

Push this all out of your head. None of it was real.

I am fine.

Another Dream

I dreamed that I stood in front of my door, and on the other side I could hear the chain rattling and breaking apart. I heard a thud! as the padlock fell against the carpet. And then my hand, acting on its own, reached out and opened my door.

I stepped out into the apartment, and my legs carried me to Jess' room. I stood there, my eyes unblinking, my neck stiff as stone, watching.

Thousands of bugs from hundreds of species crawled about the walls and floor. They crawled up her bed in a grotesque mob, a sea of limbs and carapaces. They crawled into her ears, her mouth... Every opening they could find, they entered, and she slept soundly through it all.

I tried to turn away, but my body refused. I tried to close my eyes, but my eyelids wouldn't move.

I stood there for what seemed like an eternity, watching as this swarm crawled all over, all in, her body. And finally I felt myself turn around.

She was there. The woman with the wooden mask. Her painted-on smile and her painted-on eyes took me in. I felt my knees bend, and suddenly I was kneeling before her.

I woke up on the couch. The chain that was on my door is gone. Jess doesn't even remember putting it on. She seems fine...

I'm not sure how much of it was a dream, and how much...

Grinding
I hear it
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Old Episodes

Trying to pass the time, locked up in this room... watching the old episodes of Candle Cove on youtube.

Here's what I'm watching right now. This is a HUGE nostalgia trip. I really like this Greedy Gary guy. As far as I can tell, he's a one-shot character, only shows up in this episode, but he's got such a neat design. Like a lizard pirate. Too bad these puppets are so cheap. Skin Taker doesn't look threatening at all.

The girl who plays Janice is a REALLY bad actress.

.....OK, I paused to watch more and I spoke too soon. That scene around 7:34 when Skin Taker attacks Pirate Percy with a knife? That was creepy as hell. Then when Greedy Gary tried to steal the knife and... well, just watch it! Jesus, that is fucked up for a kid's show!

I mean, I get that greed is bad and all (Janice monologues about it nicely and anviliciously) but... Holy shit. His eyes! I'm sorry, but seeing people's eyes get injured just really unnerves me, even if they are cheap puppets.

Gonna keep watching this show. Hopefully I can avoid sleeping tonight. Avoid sleepwalking anyway.

Nightlife

Left work early today. Said I was sick. It feels that way. Like I'm sick. I wish I was.

I only just found out: Hank is dead. The guy my dead ex-girlfriend left me for is dead.

He was in the hospital. A few weeks ago-- on June 23, according to the news report-- he was admitted. Car accident. Apparently, the night before, his breaks had been mysteriously cut.

A few days ago they found him in his hospital bed. He'd been stabbed and injected with multiple syringes, containing multiple medicines and chemicals.

Jess is going to see Harry Potter tonight. I gave her a chain and padlock and told her to chain my door shut when she gets home. I told her I was having problems with sleep-walking. She seemed concerned, but she agreed. That's good.

I hope it will be enough.

Syringe

There was a used syringe in my hand.

I woke up, and there was a used syringe in my hand.

I was holding it. In my sleep. Why do I have a used syringe?

What. The. Fuck?

Candle Cove

That was the name of that old show. I remember now.

It's been years since I've seen it. I wonder what if I can find any old episodes on youtube?

Nightmares

I've been having more of those dreams. You know, the ones where I walk around the apartment with no control over myself while a woman in a wooden mask watches? They're getting more frequent, and weirder. The other day I dreamed that I was being lifted into the air by invisible strings, and I flew over the couches until I was lowered, and I couldn't move and could crumple down onto the carpet, unable to even blink even though my eyes stung. My eyes stayed wide open and they stung and I could not blink.

Last night's somehow managed to top even that one in the weirdness scale. I dreamed that as I was stepping out of my room, I could see a line of... well, I would say "insects" but that would be inaccurate. "Arthropods" then. Flies and wasps and spiders and centipedes and roaches and cicadas and fireflies and grasshoppers and crickets and dragonflies... every single kind of "bug" that lives nearby. They formed a line and they were moving into Jess' room. I wanted to look inside and see if she was alright, but my neck and head wouldn't move, and I felt my feet carrying me away from it.

This morning she was fine and I was fine.

But her other rat was dead.

Problems

Yesterday I walked into my room to find my computer turned on, with some blog on the screen. It had a comment that I had left on it.

I don't remember leaving that comment. I certainly don't remember ever reading that blog. It was one of those "slenderman" things. Apparently, it's some sort of public domain horror monster that a bunch of people like to write blogs about and pretend is real. I don't know how this account left that comment on that blog. Jess denies having anything to do with it.

God I'm tired. I was so freaked out that I had trouble sleeping, and I also think I was hearing things. Last night my ears were filled with a sound like two stones sliding against one another. A constant grinding that seemed to flow all around me, boring into my mind.

Hardly any sleep at all. So tired...

Some Old Show

I remember where I've seen that puppet before!

There was this old TV show I used to watch when I was little. Can't remember what it's called, but I remember puppets. They were pirate puppets. And they were friends with this girl. I remember that the puppets and the girl were afraid of this other puppet. He was a skeleton who stole skin or something. Because he had no skin of his own I think.

That's where I know the puppet from. It's that skeleton guy from that old show!

Wow. He looks pretty creepy for a kid's toy.

Puppet

When I got home from work today, there was this puppet sitting in front of my apartment's door. This weird little string puppet (I can't remember what they're called. Msomething).

I think one of those kids is playing some strange prank on me. I'm not sure what to do with it, so I just stuffed it in my closet. Jess thinks it's creepy. For once I agree with her. It's shaped like a skeleton, wearing a weird fabric for its clothes.

What really gets me, though, is that it seems so familiar for some reason.

Lazy Sunday

Went with Jess to see Green Lantern yesterday. It was OK, I guess. I know next to nothing about DC characters.

The webs are all gone again. So there's that.

Kids in this place are still annoying.

Doing nothing all day today.

Nothing else to report.

Picture

Why do I have a picture of Ellie and Hank on the floor next to my bed?

Seems like a random thing for me to have.

Community Problems

The webs are all back. Landlord's pissed. He tried to get the exterminator he hired last time to come back, but apparently the guy is sick with something. One of the neighbor's offered to help, said he could just hose the place down-- no need for a professional exterminator.

Landlord-- His name's Eric, by the way-- is hesitant. He has this thing about doing everything properly, no matter what. Kind of anal about it. Still, I think he's probably just going to go with the "hose it down" plan.

Alice

Man, fuck all those game reviewers and fuck Duke Nukem-- Alice: Madness Returns kicks so much ass it should be a law that everyone has to play it.

Strange Dream

Last night I dreamed that I was walking through my apartment, and everything was quiet. I opened the door to Jess's room and stepped in. I watched her for a moment as she slept, and then I left her room, closing the door behind me.

I stepped outside, and looked out into the night, and I felt the cold winds chill my bones. But even in the face of this cold, I still stood there, unmoving.

Finally, I turned around and walked back inside. There in the middle of the living room was a woman I had never seen before. She was covered in som sort of wooden armor, with strings all around her. Her face seemed painted on, and she stared straight at me.

I walked past her, ignoring her stare, and I climbed back into bed.

And then I woke up.

Water Balloons

Got to leave work early today. Hurray!

Some of the neighborhood kids were having a water balloon fight as I was walking home. Cute. And then one of the little brats threw a balloon at me. Granted, he missed, but still. Could have soaked me.

Oh yeah, and that big spider web in those trees? It's been taken down. Kind of a shame, really. It looked pretty neat.

Fine

Couldn't find anything on what happened to my arm yesterday. And I haven't had any trouble since. I guess it was just a... brief... episode... thingy?

In other news, Jess came home drunk late last night and crawled into bed with me. It's a small bed, so this was very uncomfortable. I had to get up and sleep on the couch. She was pretty embarrassed when she woke up. Good thing she doesn't have a steady job, or her boss would probably fire her for coming to work hungover.

Arm Troubles

Work was as boring as usual. I work at a bookstore, and the days go by slowly since, well, nobody reads books anymore. Philistines.

Anyway, Jess is going out with one her friends tonight, so I guess I'll stay in, maybe watch a scary or get plastered or possibly look up disorders that affect arms.

Oh, did I not mention that? Yeah, earlier today my left just stopped moving. Try as I might, I couldn't get it to move. It wasn't numb or anything, I could feel it, it just wouldn't move. Like it was literally frozen in position. After a minute or so, it just went back to normal.

So yeah. Looking up stuff like neurological disorders and shit. FUN.

Webs

I've mentioned a group of trees near the apartment, right? Well, there's this giant web there now. Like, it looks like someone stretched a giant cotton ball out over the branches.

Jess refuses to go there, and the landlord's paying some exterminators or something to get rid of it. Damn thing just sprung up over night. Spiders can move fast when they want to.

...

I was going through my drawer today and found a picture of me and Ellie. I didn't even know I had it. Brought back a lot of memories. I'd thought she was perfect and then...

Heh. I guess I'm just too much of a romantic to actually be... well, be a romantic. If that makes any sense. Fell in love with the idea of her rather than her.

Just looking at that picture... Looking at how happy we were.

It's strange though. I don't remember ever keeping this picture.

Spider Surprise

Jess found a spider in her room today. Just lifted her pillow and there it was. She screamed bloody murder. I couldn't help but laugh.

A Garden Spider, like the one I tried to keep as a pet a month back. Harmless. Poor thing was probably terrified.

Anyway, I let it out into those trees nearby.

Funeral

Ellie's funeral today. It was... I don't know an OK service? I've never understood why people use words like "nice" to describe funerals. I mean... it's a funeral. It's, by its very nature, not nice.

Her boyfriend-- I think his name is Hank?-- kept glaring at me through the whole thing, which is weird. The police were there too, though they kept their distance.

Afterward, Jess and I just sort of sat around the apartment, doing nothing.

Untitled

Work is fucking boring.

What?

I'm almost all better now. Feeling better anyway. Or I was.

I was watching TV, and flipping through the channels, and I ran across the local news station.

Ellie McDonnell found dead in her home. Murdered.

Ellie.

My ex.

What the hell? I just can't believe it. She's dead? Who the fuck killed her?

Yep. Still sick!

Status update: I am still sick. Add "headache" to my list of things. I need to lie down.

Ugh

Sick today. Fever. Threw up too. Smelled terrible. Jess refused to clean it up, so I had to.

Well, on the bright side, no work today. But still, ugh.

Farewell

Jess is all upset. One of her rats is dead. Yeah, I didn't like those things, but it's still kind of depressing. It hurts to see Jess sad, you know?

Not sure how it died. It seemed healthy yesterday. Today it was dead and all swollen. Poor thing.

Stuff

My Ex apparently got herself a new boytoy. Certainly didn't take her long. Guy looks like a douche anyway.

Work sucks. I'm an assistant manager at a local store and it's sooooo boring. I hate it. Terrible work.

I came to home today to find that Jess had invited two of her friends over and they were watching some movie. The Thing I believe. Classic. I didn't want to intrude so I just went to my room and messed around on the computer for a bit. I wish I had a job like Jess's. She's an artist, sells T-Shirts and whatnot on zazzle. It doesn't actually pay all that well, but it's a great deal more fun that the crappy job I have.

But alas, I have no artistic ability.

Spider Man is Nonsense

How does spider DNA fix Peter Parker's eyesight? Spiders have terrible eyesight!

I asked this to Jess and she told me to shut up. Then she went back to playing Call of Duty.

I went to my room and played Zelda.

You needed to know this.

HAPPY FACE SPIDER

LOOK AT HOW HAPPY HE IS

Yeah, I'm bored.

Jess

We kind of
um.
last night
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nevermind. Not important.

Anyway, I never told any of you non-existent followers what Jess looks like. She's my age (25) and we've been friends since high school. This is our first apartment. She's got long curly brown hair, almost black. Really pretty round face with these real pretty blue eyes. And freckles. Can't forget the freckles.

I mentioned before that she's got pet rats. I don't like them, but she loves the damn things. Fawns over them like crazy.

I'm thinking of buying a tarantula, but I don't want to freak her out.

(Ex)Girlfriend

My girlfriend (yes, I have had a girlfriend) broke up with me.

It wasn't even like a "hey I'm breaking up with you" kind of thing. She just refused to respond to any messages I sent her. When I finally just went to hear place and asked what was going on, she yelled at me. Called me a freak and said I was too clingy. Bitch.

Jess has declared that she'll be taking me to lunch and the movies tomorrow to cheer me up. Not sure what good it will do, but whatever.

Haven't posted in a week. I'd say I'm sorry, but no one reads this anyway.

Wolf Spider

Heard Jess scream from the front door today. Big-ass wolf spider was sitting right on the railing leading down from the apartment. At least I think it was a wolf spider. Might have been a Nursery Web. They're very similar looking spiders. The main difference between the two is how they carry their eggs.

Actually, come to think of it, I think Nursery Webs mostly live in Europe, so it was probably a wolf. Generally harmless type of spider. They eat other insect, in fact, so they're good for people.

Anyway, Jess was freaking out and screaming at me to kill it, but I just couldn't do it. Instead I got it on a slip of paper and carried it down the steps and set it free in the cluster of trees nearby. That seemed to placate Jess well enough.

Pets

I caught a garden spider the other day and kept it in a terrarium. Put some plants in there and was planning to feed it those small crickets you get from the pet store. Unfortunately, Jess, my roommate, freaked. She made me get rid of it.

I liked that spider. Named her Doodles.

Anyway, Jess told me that she'd kill me if I ever tried to keep a pet spider again. Don't see how spiders are any worse than those rats of hers. Those things tails creep me out.

Introduction

Oi. Name's Rick. I like spiders.

And that's basically what this blog is about: spiders. Lots and lots of spiders.

Stay-tuned!